DAY 1

today is day one. official-type. well not really, since i had ice cream. haha, it was sort of worth it. in a few weeks i won't think that, but for now, i do. since its 5:30 in the morning i think im just gonna talk to myself

your fat, people know your fat, don't try and hide the fact that your fat. its not like you WANT to be fat, i mean, you try and excersise, but to hell with that, you eat shit. fuckin pringles, and gushers, and all sorts of weird shit. just STOP. finish working on that god damn scarf every time your hungry. make a collection of scarves. by the end of the summer, i want to see 5 scarfs hanging from a scarf holder in your closet.


you can do it. i know you can.

for now, i allow myself to have 1 cup of frozen grapes a day. 1.) because it is a small amount and 2.) because frozen grapes are both healthy, and kickass.


i wish i had a scale, but for now i will just judge myself by how fat i look in the mirror, and how tight pants are, and how fuckin hungry i am ;-).


well i'll add more in the morning, but for now, i have nothing to say.



I WILL NOT LIE ON THIS! i have to tell myself that. NO! NO! NO! no lieing! even if its just a small little piece of cake or something, I WILL RECORD IT SO I CAN LOOK BACK AND NOT THINK 'WHY THE FUCK AM I STILL FAT?'